himchanspenus:

Here’s a serious advice. Even the nicest people have their limits. Don’t try to reach that point because the nicest people are also the scariest assholes when they’ve had enough.

You know my love was real.. because you know.. that if I were there holding you.. things wouldn’t be like this… God, I loved you.

I’m just like everyone else……..

I die every night, and the worst part is you don’t care. You say that you can’t do anything to fix it. But that’s because you say more fucked up things than good. It’s true. You’re too hard headed to accept it. I. Hope. You. Know. You’re. Killing. Me.

I pray.

The bottom line is, if you really care about someone you wouldn’t be pushing them away. You pushed away a person who would literally GIVE UP THEIR LIFE FOR YOU. You can’t find that anywhere in the world.

You can’t find that anywhere… and you took it for granted.

I’ve done everything I could countless times. You push me away and I was always the one that would run back to fix things. FOR YOU. Because I cared more about how you felt than myself. But I’m done doing that for someone who doesn’t even appreciate what I do for them. Or even appreciate me in general… Someone who obviously never cared about the relationship, because they could never do the same for me. It just makes me hate myself even more than I already do. The fact that the person you love so much, can’t even love you back the same. But who cares it’s only me, right?… I know I was a good boyfriend. The best I could possible be. I always treated you so fucking good. I gave you all of me. I would get mad from time to time, but it was because i actually cared and it mattered to me. I gave you every reason to always want to keep me.. But it was still never enough for you. So now, this has all changed me. I am no longer smiling. I am no longer kind. I am no longer who I once was. The person that I used to be who I miss so much. He’s dead. This has affected my life on a different level. I am cold. And sick. And cruel. And mean. I am depressed. I am heartless. I am dead. There is nothing left of me. So if you want to push me away, fine. Just know you are losing the person who has loved you for more than just your eyes, or your smile, or your looks, or your body. The person who loved you.. for you. From head to toe. Inside and out. The person who saw all your flaws as perfection. I SWEAR I HAD THE TRUEST LOVE FOR YOU. No matter how hard you will try to find, there will NEVER be someone who loves you more than me. Even if you met someone who you thought did. You will become sad as you realize deep in your heart that he doesn’t love you like I do. That no one will. And your heart will ache for me. I hope you don’t regret losing the truest and strongest love you will ever meet in this whole world… And I hope you’ll miss me.

I’ve given you every last part of me. My mind. My secrets. My body. And my heart. And it was still not enough for you…

So I will continue to suffer every night until my last, thinking I was never enough….. goodbye.